The closer we get to the date of Jesse's surgical consults for a second CVR/FOA the more overwhelmed I feel.
I know he needs another surgery. It's as obvious to me as it was when I first heard the word craniosynostosis and snapped that first photo of the top of his head. But I can still hope that I am wrong. Once we see the surgeons in person and they confirm what I already know, all hope that he won't need another surgery will be gone.
The reality of it all is setting in and I just don't know if I can handle that. I can't stand the thought of my baby boy going through surgery all over again. It just breaks my heart.
I just don't know how in the world I'm going to get through this. I barely made it through the first time with my sanity intact.
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