Jesse is such a happy baby. He smiles and laughs all the time. A funny face from mommy or daddy always gets a great big toothless grin. The ceiling fan cracks him up. And he's such a silly little man. He loves blowing raspberries. He even does it when eating his pears and mommy has had pears splattered all over her a time or two. He's so independent too, as far as babies go anyway. He loves trying new things. He took right to eating solids and drinking from a sippy cup. Of course I will love him no matter what, but I worry that this will change his personality somehow. So many worries and most are probably just silly, but all these things just keep running through my mind.
Will he be the same happy baby? How long before I'll see that smile again? Will he smile all the time like he does now? How long before I'll hear that laugh again? Will he laugh at every little thing like he does now? Will he be timid? Will going through this make him afraid of strangers? Of me? Or his daddy? Will he feel a lot of pain? Will we know if he is in pain? Will I even recognize him after surgery? Will he need another surgery? Will I really stop thinking about cranio 24/7 once we are on the other side? Will our lives ever be "normal" again? etc... etc... etc...
I love this little guy so much.
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